Everyone Has a Native Language For This. Most Never Learn Theirs

There is a default. Every tradition has one. Somewhere, at some point, a particular form was decided to be the proper way to do this, and everyone else learned to perform it with an accent.

And an accent is exhausting. You can maintain one for years. You can become fluent enough that nobody notices. But there is a specific tiredness that comes from expressing your deepest thing in a borrowed form, and a lot of people carry that tiredness and have diagnosed it as a problem with their heart.

It is not a problem with your heart. It is a translation cost.

Some people arrive through sound. Others through silence, and the sound is actively in their way. Some through making something with their hands, some through moving their body, some through argument, and there are people whose deepest expression is order, who arrange and tidy and are met there as truly as anyone singing.

None of those is the advanced version and none is the beginner version. They are languages. A language is not a stage you pass through.

I sing because that is my native tongue and I would be a fool to insist yours is the same. What I will insist is that you have one, that it is specific, and that you have probably known what it is since you were a child and were talked out of it by someone with excellent intentions.

The thing you do when nobody has told you how to do it is your native language. You may have been performing in translation your entire adult life.